Happy Light Traveler

If you cannot let go your past, what makes you think you have control in your future? Your past is a heavy luggage, you'll not have anymore space to squeeze in your futures if you do not empty it. Sort out your luggage before you embark on a new journey, travel light ^^
No one on earth is so good about forgetting everything they've been through, the past can be painful or happy, sad or joyous. Some traveler choose to pack everything, some choose those look light but heavy stuffs, some empty their luggage totally including every lesson learned...only the wisest understand what is the meaning of "travel light". We have 60 billions travelers on earth, carrying different luggages small, big, backpack and etc... we can't control what the other travelers like to pack in their bag but most importantly, which type of traveler we choose to be and may you be a happy traveler no matter any type of traveler you choose to be ^^ Me surely a light traveler.

Happiness Key & Sadness Lock

Everyone holds a master key of happiness and a lock of sadness in our heart, we should try our best to open as many happiness locks outside our world, but limit keys to find the sadness lock in our heart ^^ Many of us found lots of happiness locks in life but most of the time we forgotten we have been holding the master key since born. Or sometimes we didn't even realize we had opened those locks. ^^ My life my call!

Hold On - Wilson Philips

I know this pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Don't ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebody's gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Don't you know?
Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Things'll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin' your worries pass you by
Don't you think it's worth your time
To change your mind?

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Don't you know things can change
Things'll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Won't you tell me now
Hold on for one more day 'Cause
It's gonna go your way

Shall We Talk?

When the younger generation complaints about the older generation can't understand them, seemingly the same where the younger generation can never understand the older generation ^^ I finally came to understand what is "Generation Gap" all about...

I think the understanding is simple, respect each generation....The older generation please try to recall how much you want to be understood when you were young, how much you want to be heard. When we complaint about how our children misbehave nowadays, how disrespectful the are, there is one fact which is "Respect is earn". But how and when we lost their respect? What have we been teaching them? Why we lost them?
I won't say I have the best communication or understanding with my children, I am surely not the mom knowing every single little things about them and I truly respect the space they needed in certain level. I think that is how we create our bonding and understanding from. Always love this song, a very meaningful song about the importance of communication... Lets talk, lets listen, lets understand our loves one ^^

明月光 為何又照地堂 寧願在公園躲藏 不想喝湯

任由目光 留在漫畫一角 為何望母親一眼就如罰留堂

孩童只盼望歡樂 大人只知道寄望

為何都不大懂得努力體恤對方
大門外有蟋蟀 迴響卻如同幻覺

Shall we talk Shall we talk

就當重新手拖手去上學堂

陪我講 陪我講出我們最後何以生疏 誰怕講 誰極i悲得過孤獨探戈

難得 可以同座 何以 要忌諱赤裸
如果心聲真有療效 誰怕暴露更多 你別怕我

屏幕發光 無論什麼都看
情人在分手邊緣只敢喝湯 若沉默似金 還談什麼戀愛
寧願在發聲機器面前笑著忙

成人只寄望收穫 情人只聽見承諾
為何都不大懂得努力珍惜對方

螳螂面對蟋蟀 迴響也如同幻覺

Shall we talk Shall we talk

就算牙關開始打震 別說謊
陪我講 陪我講出我們最後何以生疏

誰怕講 誰極i悲得過孤獨探戈
難得 可以同座 何以 要忌諱赤裸

如果心聲真有療效 誰怕暴露更多
陪我講 陪我親身正視眼祭硍^得多

無法講 除非彼此已失去了能力觸摸
鈴聲 可以寧靜 難過 卻避不過

如果沉默太沉重 別要輕輕帶過
明月光 為何未照地堂 孩兒在公司很忙 不需喝湯

Shall we talk 斜陽白趕一趟 沉默令我聽得見葉兒聲聲降

Scorpio Sting

Don't make me lose my temper...watch out for the infamous Scorpio sting, you won’t forget the shock and painful after effects for the rest of your life. Yes! This is me, I can give in the best I could, but if I know I'm not respected or being taken advantage for, I'll fight back till you lost everything. If you wanna play me out in the game, you better make sure you know the game well.
Is this the dark side of me? I'm still wondering...

Eden In My Heart

There is an Eden in our heart, guarded secretly and protected in everyone of us. A secret path or a puzzle path leads us to this truly enchanting garden. Some of us spend our whole life searching for the path, some found them way early, some waited their whole life for the path to shown up. While searching for the path, sometimes we smells the scent from the garden or even a pip of it, we thought we found our secret path to it but the path was leading us no way. 

I choose to search for it instead of waiting for it to show up and been searching for years to find this enchanting garden within me. The good news, I found the path, I found my Eden. I'm certain because I'm now standing in this blossom garden, breathing the greens, smelling the scent of abundances. All I need to do now is to design my own garden, adding flowers and plants I love most, water them, guarded them from harmful insects. I'll always welcoming visitors who love to share my joys in this beautiful garden of mine. I'm glad that I found it, I'm gardening my Eden with all my love.

Rocks and Pebbles

Walking down the memory lane, pause a while for the sadness rocks but too heavy to pick them along for a long journey...instead the happiness pebbles are all I need...I'm picking up 1,2,3,4,5...50...wow! so many picked yet I'm still feeling light ^^

I came to many sadness rocks along my journey in life, thanks much to their heaviness put me no strenght to carry them along but made me appreciate much on tose little and light happiness pebbles around them. 

Is Reality Cruel?

Is Reality always cruel? Behind the curtain of cruel is hiding the "Truth", I believe to unveil the cruelty is to dare and face it with faith and sincerity, we will then find reality is not so scary after all ^^

Victim of My Own Optimism?

I couldn't believe it when I read this from Gilbert's "Eat Pray Love", "I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism." — Elizabeth Gilbert

She is speaking just exactly how I am when I was in a relationship and also carrying the same perspective in many areas. But for this especially, the short para just well described how I am in all my relationships.

Believing so much that living my life with no regrets, always plunged in like never fall in love before and go deeper each time :p guess I must be mastering love so well that I dare to let myself sink deeper each time and most always said we learn from mistake but I think God look up on me and keep giving me new experiences.

There is this saying about women's heart is like an ocean, hard to predict...but I think in this complex world, men are the same now, because some just don't know you love them as who they are and keep having the stereo type that the woman next to him is trying to change him and so he must stand firm on his ground, so to keep having this "Love me as who I am" ^^ Sometimes I think John Grey is the culprit :p because he came out with this "Men are from Mar and Women are from Venus" thingy...so giving all the reason to men and women every reason not to be better...LOL!

Despite all the hardships as what she mentioned "victim of my own optimism", I do scare about who, how and what comes next, but I'm still optimistic and believe in true love does exist. Is just the matter of when is this "one day" will come.

Power of Learning

The capability of learning is energizing and enriching my everyday, learning from every aspect or from anyone been giving me much joys in life. If one day God wanna take away one of my talent, let it be anything else but not the ability to learn, because with this learning power remain, I know I will have everything all over again. ^^ Learning is a gift that no one can take away from me except myself.

Love is...Bittersweet

Love is pure and simple...

You are happy just be with him...
You are happy even walking distances...
You are happy when he gives you a smile...
You are happy when he holds your hand...
You are happy when he gives you a small hug...
You are happy having every meal with him...
You are happy dancing with him...
You are happy when he calls you...
You are happy cleaning his house...
You are happy changing his bed sheet...
You are happy watching movie together...
You are happy when he shows you his juggling...
You are happy when bringing him a glass of plain water or Rebena...
You are happy when he buys you a small gift...
You are happy seeing his old photos...
You are happy scratching his back...
You are happy listening to his travelling sharings...
You are happy when you can hug him while sleep...
You are happy small kissing his back...
You are happy watching him pack for his travel suitcase...
You are happy hearing his voice...
You are happy eating ice-cream with him...
You are happy jogging together with him...
You are happy eating burger together...
You are happy when he gives you a bear hug...

You are happy wearing his gift feeling him with you...

You are happy reading beside him...

You are happy when he writes you an email...

You are happy seeing him...

You are happy thinking of him every single day...

Is love just this simple and sweet with no bitterness? Yes, there are, but having the sweets are worth going through all the bitters. That's why we always have this saying "Love is bittersweet" ^^

Virus Attack!

After 40yrs of researches, I finally invented a virus name "HappBee"...whoever infected will have the symptoms of smiling and laughing, others symptoms like grateful, happy, joyous, optimistic, playful and many more, will depending much on how much you are in contact with the source and how much the virus replicating.
Everyone has this virus gene inside them, but some of their antibodies like "SP" (Selfish& Pessimistic) or "UJ" (Ungrateful&Jealousy) are too strong, so the "HappyBee" virus hard to get near...the intelligent of this virus is, it knows the hidden gene are lying around in the body and will find the right timing to attack especially when the antibodies are at low. These antibodies will show in low when the body is in good health, being love, or while having joy or even when feeling lonely and lost.
So far, the research shown no antibiotics available for this virus, so it is quite sure once the object been infected, will then slowly spread in many ways and many forms. You will find yourself looking more and more youthful, beautiful and radiant, seeing everything in more and more possible and positive perspectives and lots more.
So please let me know if you are interested to get yourself infected... ^^

Don't Apologize For Crying

Don't apologize for crying. If we know what are we crying for, it will make us a better person, stronger and emotional rich which we need in life but don't ever let ourself cry for no reason then it will only make us weaker and weaker, blurring our vision physically and emotionally.

I am a crying baby, I cry in almost anything and everything that touches me...

I cry when seeing my friends walking down the aisle

I cry when I witness a new born

I cried when watching "Christian the lion" on Youtube

I cried when my friends receiving their awards on stage

I cried everytime when I watch movies that touched me

I cry when I laugh too hard

I cry whenever I see breathtaking scenery

I cry when I'm angry

I cried when I read the news of Lim Goh Tong's death

I cry when I think of him

I cried when I first canned my son

I cried when I was misunderstood by those I care and I love

I cried when I was hurt by those I loved

I cried when I scolded my children

Yes, I cry in most touching occasions, let it be happy or sad. Sometimes in life, tears play a part in balancing our laughs. Maybe because of this, I'm a crying baby ^^ So, lets make our tears worth while ^^

Free-fall Plunge

You asked me to plunge with you, with your encouragement and you assured me will catch me when I fall, so I trusted you and bravely took a free-fall plunged, but you catched me with hesitation and there I slipped. What do you do? You are only watching me falling deeper and deeper, and all I can do is trying to grab any branches to stop me from falling deeper. 

Nice guys finish last?

I always hear these funny saying, "nice guys finished last" / "girls like bad boys"... is these true?

"Nice guys" are always project these goods like:
* Shy, quiet
* Don't dare to approach girls
* Don't say what they want and like but to please others only.

"Bad guys" will have these characters like:
* Egoistic
* Care less
* I am who I am, don't try to change me

Nope...I don't think so...These are usually those self-centered taking the phrase as a bible teaching, continue their selfish way of living as though that is their "charisma", treating the ladies secondary animal after all the things he think is important in his life. And they call themselves "I have character", just trying to avoid being someone whom they are not which is "Nice" :D

So ladies and gentlemen, here are the definations of my kind of "Nice guy"...
* He is humble but will politely bring out his point if he is right.
* He is one with courage dare to step out when he sees what he wants and likes.
* He is one with sincerity, caring and respect the others.
* He is one who listen but he do not need to understand.
* He does not short sell his value.
* He is one with courage to take counted risk in everything.
* He can be quiet/talkative but surely knows what is he talking about.

Yes, most importantly, he is humble with values. This is what I call "Nice guy", am I asking too much? Why not you tell me your type of  "Nice guy" or are you a "Nice guy"? ^^

My 40th Birthday Wishes from friends :)

Thank you to all my friends who sent me all the warmth birthday wishes, those who are not in the list, please don't feel bad ya, because I know you have me in mind always and you surely have some very important to do or I left you out (please let me know :p), no worry, I've taken it as you've sent it ^^ For those who is late, please don't feel bad too...All wishes are welcome 365 days at anytime, I am generous to receive anything good ^^

A wish I received from Elaine which I love so much and I would like to share this with all of you here and wishing you...

"Happiness deep down within. Serenity with each sunrise. Success in each facet of your life. Family beside you. Close and caring friends. Health inside you. Love that never ends. Special memories of all the yesterdays. A bright today with much to be thankful for. A path that leads to beautiful tomorrows. Dreams that do their best to come true. Appreciation of all the wonderful things that life offers to you." with Love ^^

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Adriena Lee * Happy Beautiful 40 Sham! Still looking good. Keep it up!
Agnes Ling * Happy Birthday (MMS with cake)
Alex Chow Chee Teng * Happy Birthday to You.
Alex Nathan * Happy birthday Shamaine!!
Alind Delind * selamat hari jadi!
Amanda * Hi, this is d birthday wish all d way fr Shanghai, wishing u Happy Birthday, young and pretty forever, may all yr dreams come true! Enjoy yr night!
Amelia Khoo * Happy birthday dear....and may you stay youthful and pretty always....mwah...n have a blasting birthday 

Amy T L Tan * Happy Birthday and Wish you a wonderfull year ahead. 

Amy Tan * have a great birthday! I'm jealous, you must tell me the secret to your youth and beauty ;)

Andrew Tan * Happy Birthday

Angeline Liew * Happy Birthday babe... 

Anthony Foo * Happy Birthday to you, Shamaine!!! Enjoy kaw kaw tmr ya ;)
Apple * Leng leng, happy birthday to u!

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彬驸马 * Happy Birthday^^ 

Ben Lee * Happy Birthday.. wishing you all the best
Ben Lim * welcome to club 40...way to go..sister! ^^ happyBee always!
Ben Wismen * aunt shamaine!! happy blessed birthday to you!! 

Billy NoHair *Happy birthday! 

Bob * Happy birthday dear lady. There is a famous saying that Life begins at forty, I wish you Enough Good health,good friends,happiness and contentment No more , no less just enough

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Calvin Ho * sang yat fai lok leng lui ....... stay pretty and keep laughing. call me for dinner when you free.
Candice Chee * Happy Birthday, Friend!
Casey * happii bornday to u
Cedric Low * happy always! 

Cedrina * Happy Birthday
Celyn Wai Mun Chan * happy birthday to u.......may all ur wisy come true.......
Chan Yik Han * happy birthday!!!!
Charisse Mae Agduma * Happy Birthday!! stay haPpy,pretty,sexy and healthy! God Bless! ;*
Cherie Thum * Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!! 

Chery Chan * Happy Birthday to u
Chin Lin * Happy birthday. Don't just shout at home in front of your pc. Get out and shout to the whole world.
Chow Kok Kin * Happy Birthday to you, Shamaine..... 生日快樂!!! :-) 

Chris Wee ‎* Happy bday Shamaine! Have a "nice one". :-) 

Christina Lim * Happy birthday... 

Christine Oan * Happy Birthday Shamaine!! Continue to shine like you always do.... Have a good one on your big day! 

Chua Limbang * “The heart that loves is always young.” Happy birthday 2U ! 

Chuang Pui Yee * Happy Biirthdayy :DD 

ChunMan Siow 春满 * hi babe, Happi Birthday lor! 

Cindy Ho *singing* happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to shamaine, happy birthday to you! happy birdday, shamaine! happy to know that you're embracing the 4-0 number. they say life begins at 40 hehe.
Clare Lim * Happy Birthday Shamaine! You look great!
Clarence Sim * Happy Birthday Leng Lui;) 

Clementine Lee * Happy Birthday & may all your wishes come true!!!
Connie Goh * Happy Birthday
Cp Phua * YOU ARE LIKE AMERICA TECHNICALLY PERFECT SHAMAINE HAPPY BEE.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....BEST OF LUCK, ENJOY YOURSELF N TAKE CARE 

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Danny Yip Kai Yew * Happy Birthday My Friend! :)
Darren Singh * Happy Birthday!! Welcome to the 40's club and you are gonna love it...trust me! 

Dave Lim * Happy Birthday Shamaine, Yes I agreed with Sean...女人味
Daven Nair * Happy birthday Shamaine!!!! Hope you have a great one..... Cheers
David O S Koh * Happy birthday. 

Debby Wong * Happy Birthday 

Derek Kuah Yi Seong * welcome to happy 40 birthday... 

Derek Tai * Helo, beautiful hailam yee wen' Happy birthday to you! Wish u all d best...
Desmond Sim * Happy Birthday to you my dear and no matter what age you are, is a bless and wonderful thing to have you around. Lot's of love from me. Have a great B'day ya!
Dev Ram * Happy b lated b'day Happy! Wish you more more happiness !! 

Dian Long * Haha, happy 40! Got cake 4 me r? 

Diane Balqish Chai * On your birthday lots of people are thinking of you. I just wanted to let you know that I am one of them! Happy Birthday!
Dino Goh 吴沭澔 * my dear shamaine! have a fabulous gorgeous precious birthday! stay cool happy and cheerful always~ 

Doc Faisal * No worries dear... it is just numbers...What matters more is how we feel and what we do in this life.....Happy Birthday dear..... Cheers!!!!!

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Eddie Yap * Welcome to the roaring forties,Sharmaine! You hv hell of a lot of living still to do....Cherish,relish n appreciate it all dear!!
Edward Jules Savarimuthu * Time to get bolder...Many Happy Returns of The Day and God Bless You Always
Elaine Ooi * Hi Sharmaine,On your birthday, I wish you... Happiness deep down within. Serenity with each sunrise. Success in each facet of your life. Family beside you. Close and caring friends. Health, inside you. Love that never ends. Special memories of all the yesterdays. A bright today with much to be thankful for. A path that leads to beautiful tomorrows. Dreams that do their best to come true. Appreciation of all the wonderful things tat life offers to you. Happy birthday my fren. 

Elaine Tristan * Happy 40th Birthday.
Ellena Chew * Happy Happy Birthday! Good health & beautiful alwayz.....have a good one!
Ellina Yap ‎* ~~ Happy Happy sweet 40 ~ ^_^ 

Emily Vamp Koo * If there's something that you're dreaming of then may it all come true, because you deserve it all...Happy birthday my dear Shamaine :) 

Emmerine Tan * Happy 40 Birthday. God bless. have a wonderfull celebration 

Eng Ann * Happy birthday to u! Hope u have a BLAST! 

Enviro Concerns * Dear Shamaine, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :) Hope you have a blast today, also an adventurous one anytime soon by exploring the nature and outdoors with us! Stay in touch! 

Eolo Olo * Happy Happy birthday to you ... :D all the best wishes and healthy life ... with family ... Happy your 40' :D 

Erin Lee * HappyBirthday HappyBee from me-me :D 

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Fabian Ho * HAPPY BIRTHDAY & stay young always

Fakhri Muhammad Noh * Happy birthday Bee!!! 

Farrah Pajri * Age is just a number dear......but throught numbers we see countless experienced..including knowing me haahahahahahaha :D LOVE YA!!!!

Fazillah Hassan * Happy Birthday Babe.. may god bless u always & stay healthy 

Foo Kam Miew * Happy Birthday to you.
Foo Weng Kiat * Seized the day

Francesco Argento * Happy birthday Shamaine, I wish u all the best!!!!!!!!!! big kiss 

Francis Chin * Happy B'day in advance!
Fritz Stephansche Folville * Happy birthday to the happy bee. I wish you all, what a little bee needs. Honey, a warm wind for flying, daily sunshine and naturally thousands of flowers in all colours... Enjoy these day and all days too! Greetings from Germany, far, far away... :D

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Genie * Shammaine u looks great!! Gorgeous! Happy birthday!! All the best wishes, cheers:)
Gordon Nonis * Happy Birthday Shamaine! :o) 

Grace Lim * Happy birthday friend~ 

Grace T. Bessant * happy bday

Gsen Chen * Sang yat Fai Lok to happy bee too.

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Hanzman Klein * Happy B'Day Shamaine... May Love & Happines Surround u always.. G.B.U Always.. Cheerss.
Harry Nian * Aiyoyo leng lui, sang yat fai lok. 青春，美丽都跟著妳 ^^
Hazel Consulta * happy birthday! party party :) 

Hc Foo * happy birthday, sukee... fabulous 40 ahead ! have a blast ! ;)
Helena Wismen * Happy 40th Birthday...have a bblllllllllllllllllasssssssssst !!! 

Heong Chee Mei 向紫薇 * Happy Birthday to you Shamaine! May all your dreams come ture! Stay happy, healthy and pretty all the time!! 

Hilda * Happy Birthday to You! Wishing you all beautiful things n wonderful experiences. Happy happy birthday!
Ho Phei Phei * Hi Shamaine, Happy Birthday! Stay Happy HappyBee! 

Ho Yew Yee * 升热块了! 

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Inayah Ariffin * Happy birthday fellow Scorpio! :)
Intan Yuzriana * hey hotstuff.. Happy 40th B'day. I hope i look as hot as you when i turn 40 

Irene Hiing * hapyyyy b'day. =P 

Ironhart Ant * Wishing you have a happy blast at 40 cause the temperature just keeps rising! ;)

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Jackie Khoo * Happy Birthday darling! Another big blooming great beginning awaits! ♥
Jaime * Happy B..Hi Shamaine, No, I didn't forget about it... just 8 hours late ;-) Taking into account I'm Spanish, I hope I can be excused!
Jamie Phuah * happy birthday darling....u r always a darling, remember that...yea yea yea...hugsss^^ 

Jane Lee * Happy Birthday sweetie! sweetie always, beauty always, smartie always! Ha
Janine Foo * Happy happy birthday! Life begins at 40! Stay happy n smiling always! 

Jasmine Ho * Happy birthday my friend! :-)
Jasmine Yap * Happy birthday,hot mama! age is just a number. the best has yet to come. enjoy dis day n d rest of your life as u deserve every bit of it. muacks! the video is for you!! wishing you all the best that you do and may all your dreams come true!! *huggies*
Jason Chan * Happy Shamaine Day! 

Jayanthi Asokan * Happy Happy Birthday Shamaine... Have a blast and enjoy the day okay :)... 

JC Mountain * happy birthday to the hottest 40 mom! :-P have a fabulous time!
Jeevan * Happy Belated birthday shamaine!! God bless u abundantly! 

Jeff Hwong * Happy Bday and God Bless 

Jenny Chin * Happy Birthday BEAUTIFUL! Wishing you a wonderful day...May life bring you to greater heights as you conquer each step with such great energy and fire! God Bless! 

Jesphine Quah * Happy Birthday Shamaine! Hope you have lots, lots and lots of love, happiness and treats. 

Jocelyn Chew 周若青 * Happy Birthday Pretty ;)
Jodie Yong * You're 40?? U look like 34... Anyways, like u say age doesnt matter, as long as you're young in heart =) Happy Birthday My Dear! Muakss 

Johnnie Lim * shamaine, happy birthday shamaine. may you be blessed each and every day of your life. 

Johnny Ong * happy birthday to u 

Jolene Chin * HappyBee.. You don't look a DAY 40! And that's coz you don't let it bring you down.. Your positivity.. Your happiness.. Truly inspiring! Am so grateful to have met you! Missing you & your laughter HEAP LOADS!!! And go enjoy MORE of the day a HappyBee was brought into this world!!! Happy Birthday luv!!! xoxox 

Jonathan Teoh * didn't know our birthday was so close. happy birthday shamaine...
Joseph Foo * happy birthday happy bee!! cheers ;) 

Josephine Fong * Happy Birthday Shamaine :) 

Josephine S F Tan * Happy Birthday 

Joyce Puan * Happy Birthday Shamaine! 

Julie Tan (AHA) * Happy birthday!! May u hv a blessed year.
Julius Yong * Blessed Birthday Shamaine!!! 

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Kalai * Hi jie jie, wish u many many more hapy returns of d day.
Karen Koh * happy birthday!!!
Karen Lau * Hi Shamaine, Wishing You Happy Birthday & Good Health.
Karen Neoh * nice meeting up with you again after all these years.. your bubbly enthusiasm is infectious :o) have a great day! blessings 

Kate * Happy Birthday!
Kay Wee * Happy Birthday!
Keith Long * Happy Birthday Gal! Enjoy life as it comes. Doesnt matter the age but appreciate the years you have spent on this earth with close ones and friends! 

Ken Kenmin * gd morning shamaine ~ here wishing a happy birthday n may your dreams all come true 

Ken Wong * Happy Birthday Happy Bee ;) Age is just a number and you dont look it. :D
Kenny Chan * Happy Blessed Birthday...God will bless all your wishes to come true....have a blast!!!!!...:-)) 

Kenny Hiew * Happy Birthday! Have a blast! :) 

Khor Teong Hiel * Happy birthday, Shamaine.
Kingz Foo * Happy Birthday Ms HappyBee....stay young alwiz and may all your wishes come true. Take care!!! 

Kirk Keong Lee * Happy Happy Great Tuesday... some one was born sometime ago today...Turn up to be HappyBee, how's the sting doing, still lethal... : ) Great knowing you... :() 

Kl Chong * happy birthday
Ks Ng * happy birthday !! all the best in your life, mama.. 

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LaiYee Sit * Happy Birthday!!! :))
Lala Khalid * hi shamaine... happy bday to you.... still vogue lagi u... 

Lau Fe Lex * Hi...Happy Birthday to you! Wish you have all your dreams come true... 

Lee Huong Sing * Happy Birthday Shamaine. 

Leng Sau Fan * happy birthday!!!迟来的祝福 :D。。。因刚从槟城回来，很多东西要做。。。。 

'Leox' Susan Ng * Yo babe.. Happy birthday.. 1 yr prettier than ever.. Oxox..:* 

Liz Anne * Happy 40th Birthday Shamaine! Many happy returns of the day and may u enjoy your life to the fullest always! :)
Low Mei Lin * Happy Belated Birthday Shamaine!
Lum Oldman * ◄heart► ◄party► Happy Birthday to You ◄party► ◄heart►
Lycia * Happy Birthday
Lydia Ng Sy * Happy Birthday, Shamaine! Have a blast one!

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慧慧 * Happy Birthday Iron Lady ^^

Maha * Happy Birthday! God Bless You with good health and a good guy;-) who will take care of you well
Marcus Leong * ohh yya ..Happy Birthday Shamaine, almost forgot u r one day before by bday :) hehehe... dont worry abt the digits, we can always divide it with happiness. i.e. 40 / happy = 20 .. so no worry ;) hehehe
Maxin Wong * Wei!really meh? Look great n nothing like it!congrats and happy birthday!
May Khoo * hey lang loi... happy birthday
Melysa Lum * Happy Birthday to a beautiful Mom that don't look like 40! ^^ 

Meng Foong Lai * happy birthday to you! Om shanti... 

Michelle Chan * wish u enjoy yr special day... Deeply lovely wish u hav more n more happier moment going on :) merry merry merry birthday lady! Wish you have a blast one! Xoxo
Mike Fournier * Hoping you had a great Birthday girl. Cheers from the great white north ;) 

Min Grace * Happy birthday, Sharmaine! Hope you'll have a fun, happy, memorable day and may the next 365 days be filled with all the good things in store for you. :D 

Mirlay Arias Rives * happy birthday!!!!!!! 

Mohammad Mohammadi * happy birthday to you Shamaine, wish you all the best 

Mohd Fauzi Mohd Arifin * hepy bufday shamaine...all the best....u still vogue...ha..ha.. 

Moh'd Sani Yau * happy buffdaee...! wish u long lyf & prosperity. 

Mona Patel * happy birthday...enjoy 

Moon Lee * happy birthday to you leng lui....=D 

Muntip Liew * happy birthday, happy 40!

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Nancy Chin * Happy Birthday and Happy 40th dear
Natalie Toon * Happy Birthday!!!
Neeraj Chhabra * Happy B'day Shamaine! :) 

Nick Khoo * welcome to the four Oh club! 

Nicole Chia * happy birthday in advance !!! wah... still looks young n pretty oh!!!

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Paula Yiu * For a Beautiful Friend… who makes life richer in so many special ways. Happy Birthday Happiness Always XX
Pei Ni You * happy birthday to u!! =D 

Pei Pei Tai * 生日快乐！身体健康！ 

Peter Chow * Happy birthday from seoul with love
Phua Chiu Kiang * Happy Birthday Happybee....
Poon Jon * happy birthday!! 

Prasath Kanagaras * Happy Birthday....40th??? naaaah...25th! 

Puvan Maha Iswara * happy birthday sharmaine! god bless and have a nice day!! cheers! 

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Rachel Chan * happy birthday leng lui...hugz hugz from Europe :)
Rachel Kuan * Happy Birthday Happy Bee 

Razli Ralib * hppy bday happybee!
Razlin Irawati Johar * Happy Birthday, many happy returns!
Reanne * mummy mummy mummy mummyy!! Happy Birthday! (＊＾＾＊) Love love love~~~~~love ya! ♥♥ ＼(*^▽^*)/
Reena Tz * happy birthday, sweetie! may all ur wishes and dreams come true! hv a great day and year ahead! cheers!!
Regine * Happy Birthday mummy! I love you ♥ :-* I owe you a present. See you tonight!
Reinee Pan * Happy birthday to u, have a great 1!
Rich Too 朱笙鑫 * wish you happy and blessed birthday~~ 

Richard Teng * happy birthday wishing you had a wonderful days 

Rose Loong * Shamaine dear .. Happy happy birthday .. U deserve it!! All good health n bliss b with u throughout the year ..
Ruby Choong * happy birthday pretty wish u pretty forever n happy forever~
Ryan Lee Shen * Happy birthday mummy! ♥ loveeee youuuuuuuu. Hugsss! Mummy! Happy birthday! I'm grateful that you're here with me for this 18years. Watching me grow up, taking care of me whenever I've any problems, guiding me to the right way in life. When I've the chance to stand on a stage to tell about my success in life, you'll be the one I first mention. I'll shout out to the world and say "she's my mum,and I'm proud of it". I love you mummy. You're the best. :) 真的爱你 

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Samuel Chan * sang yat fai lok ... juk nei ching choon seung ju ...
Sam Teng * 生日快乐! 

Saravanan Kanniah * Happy birthday to you, Shamaine! 

Saw Alex * last minutes of your birthday, be happy...... 

Sean Teng * Happy birthday, Ms. Shamaine! Did anyone tell you that your profile pic looks ... 很有女人味... hehe... ? hope this remark add a little more joy to your birthday ^^ 

Seline Goh * Blessing birthday my dear...
Serena Chiam* Hope your birthday blossoms into lots of dreams come true ! Happy Birthday !! My dear friend.
Seymond Miew * happy birthday to you....... 

Sharma Loh Guan-Tian * Happy Birthday 26 Oct 2010 ...
Shaun Mak * Hi Shamaine, wishing you a happy & joyous birthday. 

Shee Meng Voon * Happy Birthday.........
Sherry Lee * Huah! ur profile pic looks like u re at ur 18!!!!! Happy Birthday! my wishes for u last year were stay young and pretty as always, this yr will be "Stay Younger & Prettier by day passes..." Take care! 

Shwu Shyan Pou * happy birthday 

Simon Lau * Hap Hap Birthday madam or auntie..Selamat datang empat puluhan......wish u d best. 

Sook Pin 素凭 * happy happy happy birthday^^
Stanley Tai * Happy bday! :)
Stephanie Marcia Xavier * Happy Birthday gurl!!! 

Subashini Indrasanan * HAPPPPPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYY SHAMAINNNNNNNNNNNNEEE!! =) embrace EVERYTHING gracefully which im pretty sure you're doing pretty fine =) i hope all has been good with you and you're looking great as always ! take care k? 

Suzie (MMS wif kitten singing) *Wishing u to be as beautiful as the moon always. Happy birthday dear! Muahhh xox
Sze Yen * happy birthday darling..^^ 

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Tamin Aw * Happy birthday Shamaine............
Tan Boon Hui * Happy Birthday, Pretty Shamaine ! 

Tan Nee Fei * Happy Birthday! May dreams come thru wif lots of joys, lucks, health, wealth, luv, happiness  & ... all gd stuffs :) my dear
Tan Shim Chieng * Happy Birthday and many many happy returns !
Teoh * Happy Birthday 

Terence Kung * Happy Birthday HappyBee! =)
Terry Kok * Happy birthday... 

Terry Yip * Happy Birthday Dear 

Tess Chot * Hi,Pretties mom. sorry to wish u this morning..hehe...;p Happy Birthday and wish all ur dream come true soon. Cheers... :) 

Thecla C. Baptist * Happy Birthday. 

Thomas Christopher Nabil Ribbe * Happy B-Day :) 

Thomas Hooi * Happy Big Day Shamaine... :)...
Tony Lim * Happy birthday to you.
Tsuey Yoong * Happy Birthday

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Vaani Mogan * Happy Birthday Shamaineeee ;).
Valene Chin * happY BirThdAy dear! many returns of the day! xo 

Vernon Chan * Happy Birthday Sham! Go kart go kart! 

Victoria Law * Happy Birthday HappyBee...I'm sure u will be having a wonderful day! May all your wishes come true and wishing you good health and many good years to come! ♥ 

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WanChin Pang * happy birthday dear. missin yr voice and laughin so so so much! hope u are celebratin d fullest & highest!
Wendy Lau * Happy Birthday to you!! 

Wendy Low * Dear Hapee Bee, is your big day today, wishing u a very "Happy Birthday" n forever stay young n pretty! Happeee Birthday to you!
Weng Woo * happy birthday to u ... 

Wez Hone * Happy Birthday Shamaine... I hope the next year is a ripper...
William Foo * Happy Bdy.hv a gud one
William Lee * Happy 40th,Life begin at 40...so just hang on and enjoy the life fulles.
Wilson Lim * Hae Pree Burf Dae Swee Tee...........;p
Wui Joel * suukee suukee hapy buf day! 

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Xeryue Cheeng * happy Birthday....Wishing you all the good things in life and most important Happiness.....
Xiang-Yi Khor * Wish you a happy and wonderful birthday, Shamaine! :-) 

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Yee Fan * HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :D
Yeoh Eng Choon *Happy Birthday 

Yesh Tha * Hpy Bday my fren. 

Yinmin Chung * HappyBee - :)...Real birthday is not annual affair thingy. Real birthday is the days when we live everyday like it's THE birthday.. :).. Happy B'day !!
Yip Chee Weng * Happy Birthday, I guess being 40 is just GREAT. Wishes you all the BEST & keep up your Happy Life.

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Zac Lim * HappyBee Happy Birthday!!! Cheers for life
Zeck Marjan * Happy birthday shamaine :) 

Zibert Wong * Happy Birthday Sexy....lol
Zieda Halem * Happy bday my dearest! Hope u'll have a great celebration coz u only reach 40 once in your lifetime..

My 40th Birthday Grateful List

Everyone is telling me "it is just a number", even I was telling myself that too. But the truth is I like numbers, because of numbers, I learn to live my life as years go by, I'm improving everyday for a better me in a very tiny step but these tiny steps shape who I am today ^^

I like numbers because it keeps me aware of where I am, what should I do, Who and How I want to be in time given. By counting the numbers, I'm grateful that I'm still able to count the numbers, and I'm looking forward to all the numbers in my future and I'm sure I'm welcoming my years to come with grace ^^

I am grateful...

I am grateful that my parents are healthy and happy...

I am grateful that my children growing healthily with right values.

I am grateful that my brothers, sisters and their family are healthy, harmony and loving.

I am grateful that my friends are caring and helpful.

I am grateful that I have a comfy home sheltering me from cool.

I am grateful that I have a very comfortable bed.

I am grateful that I am able to sleep well at night and maybe sometimes I snored :p

I am grateful that I love what I eat and enjoy tasting every bite.

I am grateful that I've done rock climbing, wall climbing, water rafting, diving, bungee jump and I am still breathing now.

I am grateful I got a chance tried skinny-dipping.

I am grateful that I've completed my Master degree with supports from mates and lectrers.

I am grateful that I've completed my first 15km run in time.

I am grateful that I've been into a wonderful relationship with someone great.

I am grateful that I was welcomed with a bear hug from him after my first 15km run.

I am grateful that he bought me a watch and a necklace.

I am grateful that I've visited Taman Negara with Francesco and Maha and got to know new friends.

I am grateful that I am able to constantly exercise in maintaning a healthy body.

I am grateful that my weight has come to my ideal weight and I have a firm and tone body.

I am grateful that my friends Soo Wei, Calvin, Elaine, Joe Yap are supportive in contributing to the society.

I am grateful that I came to know lots of wonderful new friends.

I am grateful that I am still salsa and loving it more.

I am grateful to my instructors cum friends in salsa...Lina,Vincente,Pat,Kevin,Lynn.

I am grateful that Bob introduced me to diving, an amazing sport and present me my first pair of fin, boots and mask.

I am grateful witnessed 5 shooting stars with my two gals at Sepang.

I am grateful to all my diving friends whom been making every dive trip a fun trip.

I am grateful that Diane invited me to her "All White Party" & open house.

I am grateful that I have the capability to listen and understand whoever I come in contact with.

I am grateful that Carolyn gave me two nice "牛鼻子" notebooks from Huang Yao Foundation.

I am grateful that I have a new car.

I am grateful I got a new dive computer as my birthday gift.

I am grateful that I won a RM1200 Parkson cash voucher from my Perodua.

I am grateful that my sis gave me a new carrying bag.

I am grateful that my sis present me her organic hand made soap.

I am grateful that Liz bought me souvenir and chocolates.

I am grateful that Michelle present me a music box and a beautiful dress.

I am grateful that the girls Ellena,Lycia,Yen,Meen,Celyn,Emily,Connie,Farrah had a wonderful birthday celebration for me.

I am grateful that Ellena gave me a wonderful make-up birthday present.

I am grateful that Lycia bought me a delicious birthday lunch.

I am grateful that Amanda bought me a piece of tastety Lavander cheese cake.

I am grateful that Serena gave me Shangri-La dinner vouchers for three.

I am grateful that Cedrina and Liz bought me birthday cake.

I am grateful that Andrew made steamboat for all of us at work during my birthday.

I am grateful that me, Ryan, Reanne and Regine had a wonderful dinner at Shangri-La, left out Jon...sorry...next time Jon...

I am grateful that I have received many many warmth birthday wishes which I am still replying.

I am grateful for all the birthday lunches, tea times, dinner, drinks celebrations from friends.

I am grateful that I have so many wonderful friends companying and sharing my life together.

I am grateful that I have a constant and never-ending improving attitude.

I am grateful that I am surrounding by wonderful people who see me and value who I am.

I am grateful that I am bless in every moment in life.

Have I finish counting my grateful list? nope...not yet, I am still counting ^^

I Love Mother Nature

The Mother Nature has been sharing abundance of resources unselfishly, from the morning dew, fresh air, blue sky, green forest, awesome unique creatures. 

It is the most unconditional giving shown for so many years, but it has finally come to a stage that she realize her love was not appreciated, but she is still giving whatever she has, this unconditionally giving will destroy her soon if we the receivers still do not appreciate and give back what we should to show her our gratitude, because she never take but give.

We are breathing the air, tranquilizing by the blue sky, calming with the greens but we giving back little or none. So much the nature is teaching us everyday, everything in this earth is living dependently yet interdependently with space given. Every single tiny living species rely on each other to survives. Respect life and be grateful to everything we have ^^ Start to give, to care and to share.

Why do I fall in love with Mother Nature? because she always surprise us with her natural beauties, and only those who treasures it will sees and appreciates it ^^ Aren't it sounds familiar in anything or everything? Natural is the Law ^^

Observing Game

I went to a dinner with a friend on Thursday night, after ordered our foods, while chatting our eyes felll on some customers, we then started our observations on the customers and it turned out an interesting dining :p

There were some 3 - 4 friends gather-chat. Two couples talk politely like friends, was smiling and laughing while talking to each other and we guessed they are not couple because they don't small touch or hold each other the whole dinner. Another young couple was just keep eating and no conversation at all, and the guy like struggling for his meal and the girl was eating like tomorrow never come.

The best scene was a young married couple, walked in with a two year old baby (I guess). The father was holding the baby girl, they found a place not far from us. We name them "The Yellow Unhappy Couple", because the wife was wearing an yellow T and we never see the wife put on a smile through out the whole dinner , except the father did played with the baby girl once a while. While waiting for their food, they have no conversation, and the husband was starring at the ceiling fan. The baby girl entertained herself by playing with the empty bowl and spoon, food came, mom fed the baby. Here comes the best scene...the baby girl thrown a spoon on the floor, the mom picked up the spoon , walked to the basin, cleaned it, and Thrown it back in the bowl. The reason I use the word "throw" instead of "put" because we can hear the knocking sound of bowl & spoon two tables away.

Am I exaggerate the scene? I don't know, maybe the sound was really loud or we were concentrating on them or we just had our paradigm set on her because we never see her smile for one single second. We started our "?????" on her. Was she a queen control at home? How were they started their relationship? Aren't they had smiling and laughing dinner when they first started, how they lost it? Is her husband didn't earn her respect after they got married? Was she too tired at work while at the same time taking care of baby at night and the house chores? Is she feeling unappreciated by other half whom make contribution to a two income household? What do they talk about or do they still have conversation? Or it was simply just a bad Thursday for them? Sometimes we didn't realize the relationship turns so bad and we can't see it but reveal through the eyes of others.

On the other hand, while out with some friends yesterday night at Vineria BSC, I saw another pair of elderly couple was having a non-stop laughing dinner. They talked, they held each other, they laughed, they enjoyed their foods, lovely couple :)

Some couples take the long relationship or the marriage for granted, fall into a scene whereby thinking that after being together for some time and presume everything should be like this, no topics, no smile, no courtesy. A relationship is like gardening, it need the sunlight, rain, fertilizers, and cares in order to grow healthily and abundantly. It does has some worms and bugs bothering it, but like the elderly couple, they take care of it and keep fertilizing it.

My question now is, how do you and your other half look like when out? Do you all talk happily and have non-stop conversation? Do you all share on everything and laugh together on all the madness done together? What is your story?

Everybody's Free to Wear Sunscreen! (Original + English Subtitles)

A meaningful song...God bless all!

Lyric

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not

understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.
Floss
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own..
Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.

Me & My Son

Had a short conversation with my son early morning, his dad been complaining about him, suspecting him skipping his classes, so I have to play my role. Our conversation...

Me : Son... u hv been skipping classes?

Ryan : Nop

Me : Then why dad said he called college but hv class? shen...sorry that i hv to be bit lengthy here...

Ryan : Ytd morning class for group 2, afternoon class for group 1

Me : I'm glad that u found yr love...but the study is equally important...u r not there to fun but for yr future...dad willing to pay for it coz he cares abt yr future...we must hv an understand groud on that...

Ryan : Okayyyy

Me : I know it's annoying not being trusted... which i'm always hv this faith and i hate not being trusted...but sometimes u hv to show to gain trust...yes getting all the nagging in the hse is no fun at all, i can't stand it too, but take that as a motivation for u to do it better, to proof... sometimes in life before we wanna hv life living for who we are, is a path we need to go thru...

Ryan : I'll do my best

Me : Reason being I dun really wanna talk to y'all abt all these coz I believe y'all know what to do and I truly believe every individual growth wif their own values...
When we pursue on something, we always hv something to distract us...this is the time u hv to prove yr self-discipline...u r the pilot in yr life, u determine who u wanna be, no one else can take charge for u...we can only tell u fr the satellite tower r u deviate fr yr track to yr destiny...k..love u...HUG

Ryan : Okay I love you too

Me : Auh...early morning kena lecture pula... no is not... is a love message ya Good day!

Ryan : Haha okay

End.

I have three teenagers with very different characters, talking to them have to be very tactful. As a parent I need to guide them but not nagging, I have to feel them and treat them like how I want to be treated. My way of teaching may not bring high scores in their academic, but I am sure they will score high in their life, they will score high knowing and being who they are. And I am grateful I have three wonderful children always making me proud to shout out "I am their mother!" :) Love you son, love you gal, love you my baby.

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You (MTV Video Clip)

"...Because of you,I learned to play on the safe side, So I don't get hurt..Because of you, I find it hard to trust, Not only me, but everyone around me...Because of you, I am afraid...Because of you,I tried my hardest just to forget everything...Because of you,I don't know how to let anyone else in...Because of you..."

Eat Pray Love

Date : Oct 1, 2010 Friday
Time : 21:50
Venue : Mid Valley GSC cinema
Movie : "Eat Pray Love"
Actor : Julia Robert
Attendees : Me, Ellena, Lycia, Meen, Emily, Soo Wei, Liz, Maha, YinMin, Celine, Shuan, Derek.

When I first saw the movie title, I know it is surely a movie I'm not gonna miss. Initial idea was thinking of having a gals movie outing following a tea catch up after the show on a Sunday afternoon. After looking at my schedule, can't find any available Sunday, so ended up had it on a Friday night after dinner. It was still a good session after all :)

I was practically walking myself in the movie, touched me when Liss had her first prayer in the bathroom. The prayer was exactly like what I did most of the time when I was lost, the words, the situation and all. I was wondering, is Elizabeth Gilbert walked the same path too? or had she had any conversation with me before?

Like what the Italians live their life, I do not need someone to remind me how to be happy, how to live my life to the fullest, how to let go myself and hang lose. For the past 11 years, yes, that was what I learned and this is how I live my life. I know I have to live my life happy, free my mind, love every bit of body and love everything and people around me.

Eat

We eat to live or we live to eat? to me, not either one. Eat to live is to fill our stomach with food and keep our body functioning, but looking at some bad diet habit, to some are just eat to get sick. No, that's not what I want. To some, too cautious of getting ill, so eat healthily but being too extreme. No, that's not what I want. Live to eat not for me neither. I do not need to have every best taste in the world, best cuisines to indulge me. But yes, I need to feel good about what I eat, I need to feel love about what I put in my mouth, I need to feel I'm eating my life with every bite I'm taking. I need balance.

Pray

I found meditation years back and it helps me tremendously for all these years. But now I wonder, have I really been meditating? I know the God is in me, I know how to breath but now I know, I don't know anything at all.

Love

At some point in life, I thought I was deeply in love with someone, each time when I walked out from the relationship, I felt sad, hurt and hard to let go. Some took me a few days to walked out, some a month, some few months to walked out. But I'm now thinking, am I really walked out or each time it just sinking me deeper and deeper to walk out from my fear of being in love.

I am in conflict most of the time which I have fear in love yet I have so much faith that love does exist. I do not know how and when I am able to walk out from my fear, the only thing I can do is to go with the flow. Yes, I do believe that let the law of universe take place when the situation is beyond my control.

I do have plenty of love other than finding other half, my parents, my children, my sisters, my brothers, my friends, these are the people have been surrounding me and supporting me all these years. These are the loves have never abandon me all these years. These are the loves that keeping me strong and standing still after all the falls and I'm truly appreciate it.
I do not know what am I searching for in life, I seem to know what I want, I seem to living my life as I want it to be. I am living my life consciously, shaping the way I want my life to be but I'm not there yet. I know the day will come as long as I am doing the right thing everyday, continue shaping the life I want it to be, I'll be there in times to come.

I am grateful to everything happened to me, every lesson makes a better me, every pain shapes a stronger me. As the movie goes, live my life as simple as "Eat Pray Love". A good movie I am strongly encourage anyone to step into the cinema, if you can't feel much about it, maybe you have not been through it or maybe you are already walking the path you want, glad for you.

Love you, God bless ^^

Facebook Status ~ Sept 2010 ~

Ok ok...Yes, I know I'm loosing my Mummy Power! I asked a favor fr my son, he said "no" but gal fren no need to ask, she just said yes on behalf of him and he turned to a "Yes"... and I finally admitting now...my son grown up! :D

No more Hotmail or MSN...IM with Skype, email with Gmail...!!!
September 30

Gals..."Eat Pray Love" movie outing this Friday 9pm The Garden GSC Signature, PM me if interested :) Guys...sorry hv to put y'all away, will hv one for y'all if there is a "Eat Drink Sex" avail. ya :D
September 28

Calling! interested to a Friday nite out? 9pm Eat Pray Love at Pavilion and a sure for some drinks after that :)

is looking forward to "Eat Pray Love"...read the story line, sounded too familiar...

Hotmail account got hacked, can't access to it no matter how many times I reset my passwords :s anyone experienced this before?
September 27

Home sweet home...chillaxing Sat eve...charging for an adventurous Sunday :)

cleaning while ABBA'ing is a form to ease the pain and giving the joy of cleaning...so, I Love Cleaning! Hv a great weekend frenz :)
September 25

My recent dive trip to Perhentian ^^ Blue sea, white sands, sunshine, rich marine lives... I Love Diving!
LIFE is a sorrow - ACCEPT it and FACE it; LIFE is a challenge - OVERCOME it and EXCEL it; LIFE is an adventure - DARE it and ENJOY it; LIFE is a goal - MAKE it and ACHIEVE it; LIFE is a gift - LOVE it,LOVE it and LOVE it!

Like this phrase by Bear Grylls "Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strength. When you go through hardship and decide not to surrender, that is Strength." ^^
September 23

Too early for a new year resolution? or a birthday resolution :p complete my CFP, take up a new language, complete my salsa, take up a craft...err...what else? lemme think hard... ^^

Water rafting this Sun at Gopeng...anyone else interested? ^^
September 22

Is 777 the devilish number? hahaha... I like it! coz is now showing on my frens list... :D

Err...what shld I do now? Oya!...Sleepppp.... nitezzzzz...kiss (-.-)
September 21


Anyone interested to 2010 Perhentian Island Challenge buddy? I need a buddy...

A chillaxing trip...the sea, sun, sand, frens, fishes, turtle, sharks, corals...poor internet connection...isolated resort...long drive...beautiful scenery...That's what I call a wonderful holiday ^^ miss me not? miss u o...
September 20

Life is short...DIVE HARD! Underwater world...here I come again! :D Happy Holiday frens...muacks....
September 15

What do u do when u know u r not the one, not the 2nd best, not a substitute, not even an option but just a filler?... walk away...

Had a wonderful long holiday... nice place, nice frens, nice chats, nice foods, nice weather, nice burnt :p and a wonderful rainy Monday! Love it...next? a holiday after another...Perhentian Dive...here i come! ^^
September 13

Sunburnt...tanned and more to come :D

a good knocked out, waking up on a lovely Sunday :)
September 12

the rain is just in time bringing me to my lovely dreamland after a great Chiling trek...time to recharge...zzzzzzz :)

Lovely weather for hiking...gonna hv a chilly soak at the chilling falls :)
September 11

finding bads in someone u love is equally hard as finding goods in someone u dun love...
September 10


Perhaps is time to look at Social Business? "The poverty is created not by poor people but by their circumstances tells us something else important-something abt the potential of human beings themselves."-Muhammad Yunus

A good lunch with a movie... :) the celeb of long hol is just began...Happy holiday! Selamat Hari Raya! :)
September 9

If you dun find my status interest you or been flooding yr page, my apology... ^^ I'm all good if you choose to hide me coz I'll write whenever I feel like it :p If you like what I write and also like to contribute yr thoughts, De nada! you are most welcome ^^ Will update my blogwww.shamainehappybee.blogspot.com whenever I feel like doing so ^^

The most ideal song to sing to someone when dun love but still feels like keeping their love and dun wanna ruin the friendship in future and showing u dun mean to hurt them...take this! "You are always on my mind" :D

Wake up...if they wanna see you, will find one reason - miss u...if they dun wanna see you, thousand of reasons - works busy, frens in town, parents, wanna hv alone time and on and on and on... :)

Selamat Hari Raya Aildilfitri to all my Muslim Frens :) Those who are travelling back to their hometown for the Hari Raya celebration or those wo are travelling for joining the slow traffic, have a safe journey! :)
September 8

Anyone interested to have a Thursday Crab nite for craps :D lets have a muhhibah celebration...location: USJ Taipan or OUG...both yummy yummy :)

If I date you out for a fine dining, perhaps a movie after that...but u pay...will you say yes? :)
September 7

muahahaha... I just won some prize from Perodua Alza lucky pick :) RM1800 service voucher/RM1200 Parkson shopping voucher/Perodua body kit...Which one shld I choose?

Although I'm an open book, but please read between the lines...
September 6

Enjoy every minute of your life...Be Happy NOW! you are the pilot/director of yr life, u control yr destiny, u design yr stage...If you cannot control yr mind, take charge of yr life...Who will? No one is responsible for yr life but youself...

Can you still being rational while in love? sorry...if you are, you are just not in love yet...But how do you know you are in love? you will do all kind of things others see it as crazy but you think they all make senses.
September 5

‎"我们只有一个地球，所以你要爱护地球；地球上只有一个我，所以你也要爱护我!" :D - unknown
September 4

"有些事，明知是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；有些人，明知是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没有结局；有时候，明知没路了，却还在前进，因为习惯了"- unknown

Anyone in Rent-A-Car biz? I'm looking for a 3 days rental...cheap and good pls :)

Had a blissful morning jog...and found a great scene for appreciating sunrise at Bkt Jalil Park, when the scene spotted, Celine Dion's "A New Day Has Come" was just in time...Wow! the feeling was just great, wish I can share the whole scene and feeling in picture...will be back with camera, hopefully I'll get the exactly the same sunrise ^^
September 3

～道德可以弥补智慧的缺点，但智慧永远无法弥补道德的空白～但丁
September 2

I Love Diving

It was a wonderful dive trip that I had last week, my first trip to Perhentian. Being a Malaysian, almost touching my 40 years staying in Malaysia, yes, first time :p

Four of us, Jordi, Jaime, Beatrice and me. Started our journey around 11pm at night from Bangsar with my Alza. (oh...I must promote this, I love this car...specious, good pick up at 1500cc, economic fuel consumption - RM160 for almost 1200km...wondering will Perodua send me a thank you note with this advertisement :D ) The journey took us almost 7 hours to reach Kuala Besut. (The Route - Bangsar->Ipoh->Kuala Kangsar->Gerik->Jeli->Tanah Merah->Pasir Putih->Kuala Besut) We then had some light breakfast (light because can't eat much after the whole night zombie'ing) and a nap while waiting for 7.30am boat transfer to Pulau Perhentian.

We were welcomed by Peisee, one of the owner of Bubble Dive Resort. A very nice quiet isolated resort at Tanjung Tukas, I think there is another resort next to it but hardly notice it, so I take it as isolated. :p Jordi was doing his OWD for the trip, pity him with no rest and started his class at 10am. Jaime, Beatrice and me had a good rest, did our first dive at 2pm right after lunch.

Done 7 dives, I must say I love this despite some of the dives with bad visibility. I saw many nice stuffs...One of the highlight of the trip was witnessing the cuttlefish mating, this worth all the long hours drive and bad vis.

I saw Blue Spotted Stingray, Bamboo Shark, Map Puffer, Pipefish, Shrimpgoby, Raggy & Devil Scorpionfish, Bat fish, Cowtail Stingray, Brownbanded Pipefish, Box fish, nudi nudi and nudis....so many :)

Devil Scorpion Fish...cool name rite?

Blue Spotted Stingray

They made a good pair - White Eye Moray Eel & Bamboo Shark ^^

Cute Puffer ^^

So I am sure you can imagine how happy I can be ^^

Time to splash the mermaid? LOL! Actually, I got myself burnt...

Finally...I'm done with this Buddha post ^^

Welcome to the underwater world ^^

I love diving, I love it when I'm under water I hear only my own breathing, I love it when I can move freely with no gravity, I love it when I know I'm exploring 2/3 of the world. Seeing all the interesting marine lives is a bonus to me. I am not an advance diver, I appreciate breath I'm taking underwater, complaining the visibility is just for the sake of complaining :p in actual fact, I don't really care as long as I have my nitrogen gas :D

Overall, we all had a good rest and relax time at the resort except Jordi busy with his OWD license ^^ Nice place, nice people, ok foods :p met some new friends Kathleen our dive master, the two Eric(s), Rodney, Dollah from Bubble Dives, two Chris(s), Samantha ^^ Will I make a trip back? Yes, for sure I will and I'm just hoping is happening NOW! Thank you all for making my trip happening! ^^